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Rebecca in India

Thursday, June 30, 2005

reverberation

As I sit in the St. Mary's library, it seems unreal to me that I was in Thailand only a few days ago. However, waking up at 5 or 6am every morning reminds me that my body is still living in a different time zone. It is kind of nice to wake up early and feel the stillness of the sleeping world, to watch the sun shyly creep over the dew-covered lawn. Maybe I will make a habit out of this.

I am reading Villa Incognido now. I am in love. It is an amazing book and I highly reccomend it to everyone. Tom Robbins has a truly unique style of writing and I love the way he uses analogies and various literary devices to make poignant statements. awesome.

Oh St. Marys, what poopy weather you have selected for the day Erica and I have chosen to have our picnic and kayacking adventure. Yesterday the sunset was gorgeous. I appreciate the beauty of our school ever so much more after my recent time in the bustling, consumer-driven city of Bangkok. True, the beaches and Islands in Ao Nang had their own unique charm and splendour, but they were missing the ivy of academia. They had a natural way of invoking philosophical thoughts in my flighty mind. St. Mary's does it differently, making me think of next semester and SMP work, and finally the inevitable graduation. As I see former Alumni hanging around, working in St. Mary's county, living in the St. Mary's bubble, I wonder what is to become of me when I leave. I love it here, I am happy to be visiting here for the next few days, reuniting with friends before I go back to work. I think I'm starting to feel a little bit of India reverberating within me. India seems to bubble up in my daily life like a carbonated beverage. It feels like I have to burp. Something random will trigger a thought about India and what it was like, and from there my thoughts run rampant, dreaming of everything from the possibilties for happiness and social change to the taste of mango lassis and the ubiquitious smell of curry, inscense, and fecal matter. It makes me happy to think that this burping feeling will continue, prompting me to reflect on the trip in ways I never thought about while in India. I want to go back.

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Live from Cambodia

My first experience on a motorbike was great. We woke up at 430 this morning (after a crazy 14 hour trip into Siem Reap from Bangkok the day before) to get on the back of some motorbikes and drive to watch the sunrise over Angkor Wat. It was incredible. It was such a cool experience being there with other people who were simply there to watch the sunrise over a gorgeous backdrop of temple ruins and palm trees. Cambodia is gorgeous. I feel like I'm in national geographic or some travelers magazine. The temples are unlike anything I have seen before. Some of them are unfinished and in ruins. Others are in pretty good shape. I had fun today jumping on the rocks from the ruins and monkey climbing the steep stairs, it is like a big sandstone jungle gym. Later, I went with these Brittish girls to get a massage from people who were blind...that was a cool experience. I also met a guy from Mexico in the temple ruins and practiced my Spanish with him for a bit. It was nice to hear/speak Spanish again. I miss it alot. The people here are also extremely friendly (especially in the few rural areas we stopped in). Although in Angkor they really push you to buy things alot. I unwittingly bought a 6 dollar bottle of water today from a little girl. The kids are all really cute and it is hard to refuse their somber, yet happy faces, until they start to get angry because you won't buy things from them. I have found myself giving more here than I did in India. Which is strange for me because in India the poverty was alot worse. I think I hardened myself in India so I wouldn't be affected as much by the poverty. I went in knowing I couldn't give to everyone and thinking that by always giving, I would just be perpetuating the viscious cycle of the system, eventually leading to more begging.

Monday, June 06, 2005

the end of poo nation

So I'm pretty sad that the India segment of our trip is over. I miss the rest of the group already. Our last night we had this really good conversation about the trip and our thoughts and the group dynamic. It was pretty emotional for me, I realized some things I had been thinking and doing throughout the trip that were not necesarily what I had expected I would be doing. The talk was good and I wish we had more of those over the course of the trip, but I expect we will wehn we get back. I feel like there is so much I want to say and communicate to others about my experiences and feelings, but at the same time, I feel like they are indescribable and I can't recognize some of the feelings myself. Right now I am in Thailand writing on Tarn's computer from the hotel room. The airport experience in Delhi was total hell. And I think I'm going to write more later because there is good food here now.

Friday, May 27, 2005

rishikesh

Rishikesh is a great city. Last night we went to the daily evening Ganja Puja service on the Ganges and it was an incredible experience. The peoples faces displayed spiritual charges as they sang songs and clapped there hands. It seemed almost like a scene from a magazine, but it felt real and emotional. There was one girl my age whom I kept looking at and smiling as I watched her get into the experience and she would see me and smile right back, encouraging me to feel the way she did. I don't think I reached the point that she did but I certainly felt something. After the ceremony, we went to Chotiwalla's for dinner. They had amazing food. Actually, it wasn't the greatest food ever, but I was really excited because they had banana pancakes and my mouth was craving some relaxation after all the spicey fire I had been putting it through. Mere and I had an interesting monkey run in yesterday while searching for Yoga classes. One monkey scratched her and another hit the back of my leg when we were running from them. They were pretty scary and I don't think I'm going to get that close to them any more. This morning I did go to Danny's Yoga class with Cici and that was really cool. Although some devotions were pretty hard! I think I'll check it out again tomorrow. Well, I think its time to find some Chai.

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

rockin the pilgramage sadoodle style

The past few days have been pretty interesting; lots of car rides and long hikes through poop and dust/mud covered trails. It is pretty strange that just a few days ago we were playing in the snow up in Kedarnath, sliding down the Himalayas on our butts. Now we are in Rishakesh and the weather is definately not cold. And we are not the only white people here. Oh...last night was pretty strange, we all danced in this Indian wedding brigade (initiated by Sunshine who seems to find much love and brotherhood with the Indian people everywhere he goes). The women in the wedding did not like us so much but the men loved us and kept inviting us back into the parade. We decided against following them for 20 more minutes to the brides' house for a dinner due to some dissaproving stares by a few.
So anyways, about the pilgramage. Well, the trek itself sucked (except for the temple part and the awesome scenery). The trail was covered with poop and pee and men carrying people and mules pushing pedestrians out of the way. It was a pretty grueling uphill 14 km hike and most of it was extremely hot until the last kilometer or so which was surrounded by snow covered mountains. I enjoyed the scenery immensely when I wasn't dodging mules or people carrying people. As I walked, I wondered what sorts of things were going through the pilgrim's heads. Many of them had spent a lot of time and effort in order to go on the trek. People of all ages were there. Children sometimes paid for their parents to go and so entire families went together. I even met a few Indian people who had come from America to do the trip. They were there with their families. At the top of the mountain, it was very poor. The Saduus were probably the worst ones we have experienced. There was so much begging and people harassed us more than others because we were the only noticeable westerners; therefore, we were rich. Even through all the poverty, trash, and sickness, I think the group overall had a good experience. Although we faced many challenges, the group held together well and took it all in stride. Sharing a room and a bed with 5 sick/semi-sick people was part of the fun. None of us wanted to split up into separate rooms after we had all experienced the joy of body warmth and story-telling. It was a good bonding experience, probably the climax of the trip.
In addition to the human connections we had, I felt some spiritual connections as well. The surrounding Himalayas created a natural spiritual inclination in my thinking and I was aware of this constantly. This spiritual feeling was most pronounced when we visited the temple and I saw the sincere devotional expressions on the faces of the praying pilgrims amidst a sea of yelling and shoving Hindus. The temple was an amazing experience. So many people were waiting in line barefoot in the cold to get in, and when our group evaded the line, they were not pleased with us. I felt kind of guilty to be taking their place in the temple when many of them had traveled a long distance to worship Shiva at this sacred site. At the same time, I felt privileged to sit with the temple priest while he chanted things in Hindi and performed puja. Watching the people practically fighting over one another for a brief glimpse of the shrine induced feelings of awe and respect as well as disbelief and sadness. Sad, because I did not like to see the people who waited their whole life for this pilgrimage pushed along after only a few seconds of time spent with their deity. And awe because it did not matter to them that they came all this way only to see their God for a few seconds; they were not bothered by the bunches of pushing people swarmed around them. They were used to it, they expected it, it is their culture. I wonder what the difference in experience was for a Hindu from America and who had the Americanized expectations of the pilgrimage versus the Hindu from India. Would the hordes of noisy people serve to make the American Hindu become disillusioned and lessen the religious experience for them? Or would they feel so absorbed and aware of themselves and their heritage that it would all add to the experience? Culture in this way seems to play an intrinsic role in the religious experience. I think if our group had gone through the temple in the way the pilgrims did, pushing and shoving to get a few seconds look at the Shiva, it would have taken away the spiritual dimension, because I know that at least I would probably be too focused on the crazy crowd and my surroundings and be unable to feel the people’s emotional connection to their God. Only because we were able to go to the front and sit was I able to partially comprehend what it meant to them. Oh no, I am out of time to write, I'll be back soon, no worries.

yey India!!!

This was written while in Mussoorie sometime last week (thursday maybe?)

So a monkey tried to attack us today, but we used gandhian nonviolent tactics like screaming and looking at him to assuage his anger. There are lots of monkeys here. Almost an equal proportion of monkeys to consumable (and non consumable) trash. The baby monkeys are so cute because they climb all over there mother's backs. I could go on about the monkeys, but I would not want to bore anyone...

We have been quite the show lately for the locals. Today we proceded to have a "Spring Break India 2005" in Kempty waterfalls by trying to escape the hoardes of sari-clad mothers and their barefooted children to a more private part of the falls. The private spot turned out to be not so private and we found ourselves being videotaped and observed by people (mainly by males who enjoyed Schroeder's very nice personality and very nice body) (the fact that there were 3 girls in shorts and loose wet t-shirts did not help avert their attention either). The water was pretty grimy and cold. It was refreshing if you didn't think about the trash heaps surrounding the pool and the fact that there were tons of kids peeing and pooping a few meters upstream.

Oh yea, the other fun part about today was us waking up at 530 am (still not over jet lag) and going in search of bottled water while watching the sunrise over the foothills of the himalayas...it was gorgeous. The lack of rushing cars and horns complemented the serenity of the scene. Monkeys walked the streets with babies on their backs and trash in their mouths. Dogs, goats, cows, and little children also roamed free. When we got back to our hotel, we did meditation and yoga on the roof at 630am. It was incredibly refreshing. We had an audience for that (as we do for almost everything we do). There are not very many noticable tourists here, so we stick out. Yesterday we met a really cool girl who was learning Hindi. She was from Canada and had been in India for a few months and a few years before that. It was good to know that there are people like her who continue to visit India and learn the language and culture. I hope to come back sometime and visit southern India, well really I just want to go everywhere. I guess I'm pretty lucky to be here though, considering the fact that many people here barely have the means to travel outside their own state. Ok, I think im going to buy some bananas and water with this crazy dirty kid Danny Miller.

Monday, April 25, 2005

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